| | OK so when they say one gets sicks everyone gets sick that is so true a few girls on the same side hall as me got sick and now I'm so sick, someone told us that our air circulates from room to room. The real world people were here the other night but I didn't make it. oh ya this is my first week of sorroity life and I love it ( AEPhi). I tried to go to my 9am class this morning but there was no way I could have made it I'm feeling slightly better so I'm going to go to my 3:00 computer class. I havent seen my roomie all afternoon. We got our room phone working (ya like we have been here for a month and just now got it working) the number is (904) 256-8416. Well todays dress up day so i have to go pick something nice out and put on a happy face all though I dont feel well. Then off to new member meeting at 7, then of course the thursday night usual sig ma chi!!! | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | So this has been my first week here at Jaksonville and I'm loving it. My classes are great! My room mate...needs some work last night was the worse even though er hsd a great time going to dinner and eveything but then she got these speakers in our room and some people on our hall dont really like them. I personaly don't care until it becomes a problem with studying and everything. Friday night all the girls on the hall are going to Plush (a club) and then I'm taking a few girls with me to St. Augusine to meet my friend Melissa who goes to Flagler. Anyway this is really short because I have to go to m late class now. College life is great though. I hope everyone is having as good of time as I'am. I love you guys! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Wow, the summer is flying by. I recently went to Jacksonville to visit my school once again and to get to know the area a little better. It was a lot of fun. I got to meet one of my professors and she was so nice. Traffic there is crazy wherever you want to go you have to use the express way which the drivers on that are ready for the race track. Heather and I stayed two nights, I found the Perkins near school it was gorgeous. We played pool at Six pockets. We also meet some new friends where they took us to Bourban Street Station which is six clubs all in one building, very cool. Not a week from when i got back I left on my cruise to Mexico. The cruise itself was a blast but Mexico is breath taking. I won 100 at the casino on the boat! We took a four hours snorkeling trip where I got to swim with a barracuda and many tropical fish. I just got back Monday. Work is crazy, I have come to the unfortunate reality that you can trust just about no one. Many of my friends at work have turned their backs on me, why I have no idea. I'm so ready for college, well arent we all. Bad news is Britten now has his own car which scares me. Craig has really been making me mad, he claims I'm the only person he can trust but he isn't honest with me ugh. Aida left for 6 weeks of summer school at USF I miss her already. Well, I just wanted to say "Hey" to everyone and hope your summer is going as well as mine. Love you guys! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Summer is amazing. I got called into work on Monday and we were so busy omg. Then I thought I was doing ok until the cooks started to harass me (yes me the one everyone loves) and took it back to the infamous Jimmy story and it was never ending I finally blew up at them and then had a lone talk with the GM of our store. Speaking of Jimmy we have had a few conversations over the phone *late night* and it has been nice. I'm glowing with sun, it is so relaxing to lay out by the pool. Oh yes and speaking of pool I have picked up a new hobby playing pool it is so much fun. Now my friends (heather, melissa, and Marcus) go to the pool night at least a couple nights a week (and we have met some new friends *wink wink*).Right now I'm at the library because my computer decided to crash last week Ma-dre is suppose to get it fixed on friday. Tomorrow Ma-dre is getting me new tires for my car I'm so excited (back to the race track). And next weekend my friend Heather and I will be traveling to Jacksonville so I can become familiar with the city. My cruise is 15 days away I'm stoked. Well got to go and check on the lil one. See you guys later I love you! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Party | | Time: | 11:02 pm |
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| OK I just got off the phone with my friend Melissa it was really weird she sounded as if she had been crying. I invited her to the party tomorrow and she is going to come I'm so excited. Well Good night everyone! I love you guys!
Oh sad news my crush at night school, he finished the course we will no longer play tic-tac-toe together =(
P.S. Reminder
Friday 27,2004
6:00pm
Finn Daddys (next to south side gym which is in the plaza behind the K-mart plaza on Fruitville) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | What a weird day today was. Anatomy was fun, had a test that was much easier than I expected. Music was exciting. Then after school it went down hill. I was driving home and I was going to take a different way but then decided not to. So I'm driving along listening to The Last Five Years and the car in front of me crashed into the car in front of her so I slammed on my brake but ended up crashing into the girl in front of me. The air bags came flying out of no where and the alarm was going off and I have never been so scared in my life. I get out and the girl is talking to the guy in front of her and the next thing I see was the guy leaving. So the girl called 911. I of course called my mother right away and she wasn;t home so I called my Dad's cell phone and he was in Wachula and could only hear me and not respond so I'm crying to him that I have been in a bad accident and he couldn't do anything. He calls my mom and left messages on the home phone. Luckily my mom got home and checked the messages and called me and I told her and she came right away. As well as the police. ambulance and fire truck. I got checked out in the ambulance where I just had harsh chest pains. I got the ticket for hitting her but she didn't get a ticket for hitting the guy in front of her because he took off. My car is a mess. The entire front is unrecognizable. Everyone stopped including people who I haven't talked to since freshman year and consoled me. I finally got home and my mom did all the paper work. I was suppose to be at my job at 3. But I called and informed them of the accident and they said to take my time and just call them with my health update. I decided to go to work around 5 because I needed to relax my mind and think about something else, bad choice. I started hurting so bad at work. Then Nik took me to her boyfriends house (Scruffy) where I took a long bath in a bunch of stinky salt. And I put on his clothes when I got out. I just got home. There is a huge scar like on my tummy and a scape on my nose. And everything my chest to belly button will be bruised in the morning. I would just like to thank God that I'm alive and for him watching over me. I'm exhausted now. Good night everyone. Call me if you want to talk. I love everyone of you and am so thankful for having all of you in my wonderful life. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Ok officially had the worst day of my life. Went out with my best friend Jen after school had a good time(girl talk). Got home and saw a letter from Flagler opened it as quickly as I could just to tear my life apart. I didn't get accepted. Cried about 2 hours half an hour on the bathroom floor with my head in the toilet. Over dramatic yes thats me. What to do now. Yes I know "everything happens for a reason" I practically event-ed that but if one more person says that to me! Have many supports around me its just something you have to deal with on your own. I'm feeling depressed, moody, upset, angry, jealous, defeated and adjective that begins with a "d". I spent so much time in this and I applied early decision which meant I couldn't apply anywhere else so now I'm so behind in the game. I know there will be many disappointment but it just doesn't change how I'm feeling. I have my ACT in the morning which is going to suck because I will probably just start to ball my eyes out. My mom is being so supportive but I'm hardly appreciating it. No one be scared by this I'm just really upset and rambling my feelings on. I will survive all though I don't really feel like that no matter how many times people say it to me or I tell myself. OK well I'm going to mope and cry myself to sleep. Wish me luck on these ACT's. Good-night | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | I had an awesome day today! Did my presentation in English, so glad thats over. I also made up a test in economics which i feel highly confident in. Then after school Wells and I went Holiday shopping and had a blast in the mall. Wells, I'm sorry they don't have the letter 'N' in anything. Chinese food was awesome wells and what is up with our fortunes. The level 3 green room was amazing. I was really impressed by everyone. I went up to my work to meet some friends had a ton of great laughs, Nik I love you so much you are the greatest. Scruffy, I know how bad you want us to be "together" but lets just leave you as my older brother and as an older brother slapping my butt isn't cool. I can not wait for the Holiday break, it is so needed by everyone. There was a lot of tention in the level 4 room today. Why? Well, today is monday in the next 7 days I will be hearing from Flagler! I'm so glad we had a fire drill today, I was standing outside and the greatest thing happened someone who was standing by me started talking to me I rather not give any names but you know who you are and I would like to say: I miss you so much, I hope you are doing ok. There is so much I want to tell you and now I feel bad because I could have had this past month to share everything with you but I didn't and now time is running out. I love you so much! We got a Christmas tree this past weekend and it just puts this wonderful smell in the house..I love it. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Simple Plan | | Subject: | The 'C' word! | | Time: | 11:03 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) content |
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| Today was such an odd day. Went to breakfast with Noelia at her work. Had a great time. I went to second period where I had stayed up all night working on this project when my partner doesn't even show up because she has pink eye in both of her eyes. Needless to say I didn't get to present my project. I thought I would go to theatre and work on my dance 3rd block. Oh no, we had to talk about the 'C' word. Yes, College. Which I have applied to Flagler early decision. It's really hard for early decision because you could send out other applications except if you get in you would be wasting a lot of money on application fee's. When I was preparing my application I went to Ms. Burnhart with the worry of will everything make it there safley (transcript, letter of recomendation). She explained to me that everything would be ok. I get a letter from Flagler today (thinking it was an acceptance or non acceptance letter) I started to panick for the second time and my stomach turned into a knot and everything. I open to fin only that they are missing my recomendation, transcript, and SAT scores. I just fell to my bed in tears. Why does this have to be so difficult. I litterally can't sleep at night since I sent out this application, and I have been throwing up quite often which is gross and disturbing. I called the office of admission and left a message to have her return my call. Meanwhile my younger brother is begging me to help him with the Christmas lights outside so we put those up. I thought to myself and realized I need some personal time. I got into my car and drove over the new bridge(which is rather nice) and drove down by the beach, parked my car and just walked the beach. It was around 7:00pm. I just walked the beach until I reached the part where it gets really dark and turns into private property. I sat down on the sand and just starred at all the lights that lite uo this town is was so beautiful, watched the waves, drew in the sand, and finally walked back to my car. I'm in a really content, self concerned mood right now. I'm going to go read in my bed now. Good night everyone.
I really hope I'm not the only person who is getting this upset over 'C' I just can't help it. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Just had a crappy day. I'm still sick. I went to the college room andsome presentation was going on so I didn't get done with the stuff that I needed to. I went to my research partners house today and worked for 3 hours...its coming along. Then I went to my work picked up a pay check from weeks ago. Then talked to my second mother(Gail) on the phone and she breaks the news to me that she is moving far away...to Wachula. Then I go to hang out with Nik and she asks if she can bring someone with her not thinking I said "ok" who is it that she brings MY CRUSH who might I remind you she is sleeping with. That was really ockward since he was driving my car and was flirting with me. We drove around town and talked and then I just couldnt stand it anymore and left. Also some annoying person won't stop text messaging me. Good night | | comments: Leave a comment |
| This has seriously been the worse week of my life here was the agenda:
1. FTC
2. Dane and I are not talking
3. Band Competition
4. Allyson and I
5. Jen and I
6. Nik is sleeping with my crush
7. my cell phone doesn't work
Ok FTC was a lot of fun! My room was wonderful great memories with Alex, Sam, and Maria. I thought my audition went well as did others also. Apparently it didn't because I didn't get any call backs. I know it isn't that big of a deal. The way people were acting about this just really upset me. Everyone was walking around saying "How many call backs did you get?" It's not the number that is so important but as to where and if you are happy about it. Deniz and I had a wonderful talk about the entire situation as we walked to Olive Garden. Dinner was so nice, to bad we couldn't all sit together.
Once we got home I got off that bus and ran to get on the Band bus to leave for a competition 2 hours away. Well on the bus my phone rang and it was Dane and he hung up. I understand about bad connections and everything so I call him back and he tell me "don't call me we are through" ok whatever. I don't even know what happened.
The band competition itself was a mess. I slept the entire way there and I wake up to Mr. Alfrey lecturing about bus behavior. Then right before we go to preform I suddenly feel sick. I began to get the shakes any everything. Stacy (our coach) asked me If I wanted to sit out, but then I would have gone for nothing. As soon as I got off I got sick behind the buses and I just wanted to go home. Awards wern't until 10:30. We got awards, amazingly we did awesome which is weird because everyone admitted we had a bad run.
Allyson and I are "fighting" as some of you know. Everyone who knows me knows I'm an honest person and I would never intentionally hurt someone. I always think people should go for their goals in life ( yes including Allyson) just be prepared and careful when you do. Apparently I'm not a true friend for trying to make some one understand that situations have problems to them.
Jen and I are "fighting" for similar reasons. Don't ask me about your relationship if you don't want an honest answer. Ever since you have been dating "you know who" you never even pick up the phone to call or anything. When was the last time we hung out?
This is the most detrimental. Everyone knows I have this crush at work(imagine that). I told my best friend at work (Nik, a girl) about it and told her not to say anything. This was about around the same time as homecoming. This guy and I flirted a lot and became friends. Last night Nik asked me if I still like him (not wanting to sound obsessive) I was like "not all that much". She goes "I have to tell you something but I don't want you to be mad". I was like "Just tell me this week while everything else goes down". She tells me that they slept together! ::everyone gasp:: I tried to keep cool so I thought maybe once.....oh no for the past 3 weeks! All of a sudden my crush turned into me being crushed.
Finally, I have a nokia cell phone the one you can change covers. When ever it doesn't like me or something it just decides to turn its self off. I need to upgrade.
Sorry this post took too long to get but I had to organize everything in my head about this week. Marching band season ends this Saturday! If anyone would like to give me advice on any of the above trama please do, I'm open to anything these days. The only thing that has been keeping me going this week are you people who I see everyday! I love you guys!
Oh one more thing. At the competition the band of the school we were at a member had died early that morning in a car crash. The color guard wrote "we love matt" on their flags and everyone was dressed in purple his favorite color. It was really sad. It made me think of Jake. I miss you a lot. I hope you are smiling! R.I.P. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I know its been awhile since I updated buy I have been rather busy. On saturday we went to FBA ( Florida Band Association) where we got an overall superior and the guard got an excellent along with the percussion. This past week has been crazy and very sad someone (whose name is to remain anoymous) has broken my heart. We were getting along great and I really saw many things looking up in my whole love life department. We would have engaging conversations while driving home from work and spend hours just talking about anything and everything. As usual people began to notice and spread rumors and everyone thought we were dating. My close friend actually confronted him on this matter and he said him and I could never be serious because I have goals in life and a lot going for me and he doesn't deserve someone like me because he wouldn't want to hurt me. Yet he does want to be with someone who already has a child and he is not that father of. In one of our conversations he said how he didn't want to start a family until he was older and he would only want to raise his children in the northern region because he feels someone could be more successful with that up bringing. Gosh! I was so into him. There are many more details to this story which I rather not get into just because.
Anyway I had color guard practice today and it was..normal. I really am regretting joining this year I just don't have the time nor the interest anymore. Well someone is calling me so I'm going to chat for awhile and then go to sleep good night everyone. If someone of you would like to comment please do I could really use the advice.* this is the reason I have seemed a little not my self* | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Wow what a long weekend that was. The game went well on Friday night. Saturday morning was a drag at "mini band camp" then the 2 hour bus ride was....what it was. We got there and found non flushing toilets (rather humorous), then we preformed and we did great. I got best performance award from Stacy(our instructor). Then we got home real late Saturday night. Sunday I had work and everything was going fine we were closing because of bug night, so you have to wrap EVERYTHING in plastic and I was helping someone move this huge box into the attic and they dropped it on me and I fell down off the ladder onto this metal hot water machine. My manager comes running into dry storage and he ask me if I'm ok and everything. It was already after my shift so I went home and I could not move out of bed this morning. With the x amount of pain killers I'm on and heating pads it is starting to fell better. Thought everyone would be curious of why I was not at school. Talk to you all later. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Breakfast at Tiffany's | | Subject: | Friday!!!!!! | | Time: | 02:03 pm | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| | Today I had to get up at 8:00am to get to the eye doctors. What a trip! I told my younger brother before going in that I had all those vague numbers memorized and when I did that test the Doc asked me if I did haha. Anyway then my mom, my younger brother and I had lunch at Yoder's. Stopped by Target for some candy for the little kiddies. Now I'm off to Robin's house to have hair done for the game tonight and then to practice. Once thE game gets over tonight I'm going to fly home and hit the sack because I have to be back at school tomorrow at 8:00am to practice for 4 hours. God I just love a 16 hour fun filled band competition day! HAHA NOT! Well good-luck to the boys tonight! Go team! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | You win my love | | Subject: | Day by Day | | Time: | 03:19 pm | | Current Mood: | chipper |
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| | I'm really enjoying Economics it seems pretty straight forward. Today was the day that I had to recite "Hamlets" speech, "To be or not to be" went well actually, got a 96. I love our college days at school they are really helpful and help me regain myself.Had a SADD meeting after school today, I really need to recruit some more members! I'm getting ready for work (blah) well not actually since I get to see "him" tonight hehe. Tomorrow is the last day of this school week how awesome. Well that was the update of the day If I get home tonight at a decent hour I will update on how everything went at work. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | You win my love | | Subject: | Day by Day | | Time: | 03:17 pm | | Current Mood: | chipper |
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| | I'm really enjoying Economics it seems pretty straight forward. Today was the day that I had to recite "Hamlets" speech, "To be or not to be" went well actually, got a 96. I love our college days at school they are really helpful and help me regain myself.Had a SADD meeting after school today, I really need to recruit some more members! I'm getting ready for work (blah) well not actually since I get to see "him" tonight hehe. Tomorrow is the last day of this school week how awesome. Well that was the update of the day If I get home tonight at a decent hour I will update on how everything at work went tonight. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Good Morning! I just got home from work yes just now at 6:20 in the morning I was suppose to work from 8:00pm-4:00am as the manager but when the cook refused to cook and servers refused to serve I ended up staying until 6:00. This is how it all started I got to work at 8:00pm and I was told that we were short one cook (no biggie I had 2 others) then when the grave-yard cook got there he refused to clock in until he line was clean (which is impossible because food needs to be cooking) so everyone was arguing about that. Then around 11:00pm we got super busy and the cooks fell behind so I went to help them out (I'm not the best cook but better than the ones who were cooking) and from then until 3:45 when the cook actually walked out I was cooking. After the cook walked out I put a closed sign on the door and called my manager who was sleeping but then said he would be right in. He arrived and as he did 2 servers walked out and quit. So the last server and myself had the entire restaurant to clean! I then gave up and fell into the office chair in tears (my job is far to stressful for the amount of pay I get)
Well, I'm super tired so I think I will go to sleep considering I have to be back at work for 5:30. Nighty night | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Our Level 4 greenroom was awesome and if you didn't come see it you really missed out. After the Greenroom a group of us headed to Benigans which turned out to be a blast of a birthday party for Jessica's Davis! Tonight I had work it was....intresting. There is a really cute new cook..I know I know I always fall for the cooks and it always fails. So i get home from work and my mom and I decide we are hungary so I told her how you can order pizza online and we did the best part is when it actually comes. What is the world coming to. So we chilled eating pizza. Now I'm just reading everyones live journal they are all very exciting. Well I think I'm going to do some studying since we have finals this week. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Stacy's Mom | | Subject: | Mondays! | | Time: | 11:02 pm | | Current Mood: | grateful |
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| | OK for everyone who has not herd- my blind date was by far the worst. Brian - I believe his name was didn't speak any english and had no dancing skills and I found out tonight at work from my manager that he was 28 not 21 and previously married and now divorced. Needles to say we didn't click. Today was a really exciting day I was given pictures of the simple plan concert at 7:00am this morning which consisted of Brittens face at this early hour. I found out that Britten talked to some of my friends on my screen name and said some nasty vulgar comments to Justin and anyone else for that matter.....I truly hate you Britten Sawnn So during 4th block Jessica Davis and Addie helped me become what we call a "free women" and tore Britten out of the picture riped it into shreds and flushed it down the filthy womens toilet in the theater. Then I stayed after school with Jessica Davis and Olli and we did shop together and I completely ruined my favorite pink shirt with black paint. Olli did suggest I just add some tape and ribbon to it and it will be as good as new (I'm right on it). Tonight after work I met up with a really good friend- heather and we went to dinner since I got out of work early and we talked mostly about how her life was falling apart but I helped her in some ways to get it back on track and now we might be going to the last damn show together on Saturday depending if my manager gets out of the hospital and can work saturdays shift. Well today has been one of my better days in awhile fo sho. Except the fact that my cd player is broken in my car and I hate to listen to the radio bummer! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Simple Plan- Worst Day Ever | | Subject: | Why? | | Time: | 12:55 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) depressed |
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| Do you ever wonder why is it that; the sun rises each day, the grass is green, there are 24 hours in a day, we have to go to work, nothing ever seems fair, bad happens to good people now theres my biggest one.
I guess some of you know I have had the worst week of my life. It started out on Sunday it was my managers last day not only is she my manager but my best friend, mom, sister everything to me. It seems like the close I get to people to sooner they leave me. ( I know that seems exaggerated and I know they aren't intentionally leaving me but it just seems that way)For some specific example Deborah- we just aren't the same any more, Ashley- I'm sorry, Allyson- I know you left theater for good reasons but I miss you, Britten- lets not even go there, Jen- it seems you have more important people in your life.
Most of you know I ran for Sr. Class President well apparently Mrs. Sanders was suppose to call all candidates on Saturday and tell us who had won. I waited all day Saturday the phone didn't ring once ( ok well it did but wasn't her). I'm taking that as a bad sign.
On Friday I went and picked up my pictures from the Simple Plan concert. britten- that was fun. To bad you haven't matured enough to know what friendship means.
Also on Friday we had our Football game at venice and we won, which was really exciting. I realized I'm so over Band well color guard actually. All you you lecture others on your own bad habits. Color Guard use to be something I enjoyed now its an obligation.
I know this entry seems to be very self pitying but I just had to say all the stuff running through my mind. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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